Mass Effect Rant Incoming…

I’m playing a (mostly) Renegade Shepard and I hate his guts. I can already see where this is headed, he wont be the savior of the galaxy, he’s just a sociopathic mercenary with a chip on his shoulder. He isn’t earning the respect and loyalty of his crew, he’s controlling them through manipulation and intimidation. He/I convinced a crewman to make their father shoot himself. I felt ill after that scene but now for reasons I don’t understand I feel he has to continue on this path. I’m hoping the Renegade arc has some kind of “out” that will allow me to integrate Paragon actions in a way that makes sense for the story. I don’t want this lunatic to be the hero by the end of ME3.